Sunday evening, Sir and I went out for a delicious dinner at Sullivan's Steak House. There were two reasons for this. The first was that I lost a bet about what date Mount St Helens erupted. He said it was May 18th, 1980 but I truly thought it was my birthday, May 17th. Turns out he was right, Damn! I am usually so good with dates! I didn't mind being wrong too terribly though because win or lose, I was going to be able to share a meal with Sir and enjoy his delightful company :)
We decided that August 10th would be an ideal night to go. The reason August 10th was so perfect was because on that day, six years ago, in a dark Bellevue park, Sir and I met each other for the first time. I don't think anyone could have predicted the course of our journey and in my wildest dreams, I never imagined it would take the twists and turns that it did.
He loves a good steak and since I want only the very best for him, I researched where to find an award winning steak in Seattle. This city is flush with outstanding restaurants but after talking with several people and reading reviews, I finally settled on Sullivan's.
Unfortunately, there was some stress earlier in the day but by the time we got in his beautiful, brand new car and drove to the restaurant, we were both in much better moods. Sir told the server it was our six year anniversary and they took a photo of us and put it in a card signed by the staff. It was a very nice touch.
It was so rewarding to celebrate this six year anniversary or what Sir with his wry sense of humor, calls our non-anniversary or affairversary. I feel so lucky that our path's crossed. There has been no one I have been able to be so honest and vulnerable with and I believe he feels the same. It makes me feel so good that he knows he can share an idea or fantasy with me and that I will do what it takes to make it come true.
I also wanted him to know how much I appreciate how patient he has been with me. I have struggled A LOT this summer with various things and while he always holds me accountable, he also reassures me and helps me understand how I may better handle issues in the future. He inspires me to be not just a better submissive but a better person in general. We have worked together to strengthen my submission to him and have been rewarded with amazing success.
One of the best compliments he ever gave me was that he expects more from me than anyone else. That statement fills me with enormous pride and has helped me push through some very difficult times. I will do what ever I must to make sure that doesn't change.
There were times that I worried I couldn't accomplish what he wanted but without many words, he reassured me and motivated me to push past what I thought I could do. He continuously inspired me and his faith in my abilities made it possible for me to accomplish what I once thought impossible. I have experienced things I never thought I would and when I conquered something, I came out a stronger and richer human being. He reinforced how rewarding perseverance, strength and devotion to something outside of myself can be.
As someone who has always had trouble being vulnerable and sharing my emotions, he created a safe environment where I could be myself. He taught me it's ok to cry in front of someone and the cathartic power of sharing my tears. I have learned to open up and expose myself in ways I never knew I could.
Because of him, I have learned to disregard the societal norms that never really worked for me and instead to embrace my nonconventional desires. Through his example, I slowly learned to enjoy the moment. To not ruin the present by worrying about the past or what may or many not happen in the future. Although, I still struggle with this sometimes, it is happening less and less. By making this attitude my own, I've seen a powerful change in the quality of my life.
I could go on for pages about all the wonderful things about him and the joy of having him in my life but it comes down to wanting to say this:
Thank you Sir for being you. You make the world a better place and I am a better person by having known you. You have had an enormous positive impact on my life and no matter what the future may hold, my respect, admiration and gratitude for you will never change. You are cherished.