New Rules

In real life, other people's rules are annoying. I understand they are a necessary evil but they range anywhere from mildly annoying to a huge hassle. This is not true of Sir's rules. I love his rules. I crave them and most importantly, they keep me accountable and focused on my submission. In an tumultuous, always changing world they make me feel safe and secure. 

 

I am happy to say, he has given me several new rules in the past month. 

 

- I am to wear something he gave me to bed each night. I already had the rule that I am to wear something during the day but he believes that night time when I am lying there alone in the dark is an impressionable time and what better to think about than my submission to him. Over the years, he has bought me two t-shirts from sporting events we attended. One from the Seattle Mariners and the other from the Rat City Roller Girls. He also gave me a pair of pink pajamas from Victoria's Secret which I love. I asked if he would give me some of his shirts to sleep in and he actually gave me one of his  t-shirts from Starbucks. This meant so much to me especially since it was one of his favorite's. I feel so submissive when I have it on and it has become my favorite thing to wear to bed. I love to sleep naked but I do need to ask Sir's permission. When he allows it, I usually put on one of the necklace's he gave me to satisfy that requirement.

 

- Sir does not like the colors pink and red together so he said I am not to wear these colors together. Separate is fine. It is a quirky rule but I like it :) 

- I have been doing yoga on and off for a couple of years now. While I love it in many ways, lately I haven't been going as much as I used to or should. I mentioned this to Sir who then decided from now on, I must go to class a minimum of 2 times per week. This has kept me motivated and I have gone at least twice every week with fail. It improves not only my mind but my body and I am very happy to have this as a new rule in my life.

-I need to be accountable for my actions and words. In the past, if I did or didn't do something I was supposed to, instead of simply saying I failed to do it and I take full responsibility for that, I instead would come up with all these excuses and outside road blocks to justify why. I never realized how often I did this! I must say I have become much more conscious of this. Well, at least with Sir anyway...

 

-I am not to argue or disagree with Sir. Of course, it I have something important to discuss, I may respectfully do so. This is more about those snarky argumentative remarks. For example, I am not to be late to any of our meetings. A couple of weeks ago I was to meet him at his house. He told me I was late and I immediately raised my voice and said "No I wasn't". The way I did it was not submissive at all. The funny thing is that if he hadn't pointed it out, I would never have noticed. Submission has really made me more self aware and take a hard look at ingrained behaviors. I am happy to report that last time I saw him, he told me quite pleased how far I came here. I felt that temptation arise but before I actually said something, I was able to stop myself and act properly.

 

I am quite happy he has added all of these rules and rituals and they have only make my submission stronger.

 

 

Sir's Rule's

I have never been a particularly strict follower of rules and regulations. To me there are always gray areas and ways around things if need be. Considering this, it is odd that with Sir, I need them. I crave them and I will follow them to the letter of the law. In fact, the more the more rules he has for me, the happier I am and more submissive I become.

Last night Sir asked to me to meet him for dinner at an Inn in Mercer Island where we have gone to several times and I have fond memories of. As usual, I had a wonderful time. He makes me so aroused that I can hardly stand it. He is wonderful company. Charming, funny, smart and unbelievably sexy! I never could resist his charms and honestly, why would I want to? He even had me go to the restroom twice and told me to have 3 orgasms. I was so damn horny by then that I came in minutes.

 

We chatted about life in general as well as recent events in our kinky life. At some point, the subject of rules came up and he even gave me some new ones which I was quite pleased about. I thought about how I know the rules very well but had never put them together in one list so I decided I would do so.

Here is his list of Sir's rules for me. It has grown and evolved over the years and I hope it will continue to.

1. No touching Sir's pussy without permission. No touching of my tits also became a rule a little later. This includes needing to ask permission to use the nipple clamps (This recently became an invaluable tool when attempting to control my sexual urges but that is another story...)
2. No orgasms without permission.
3. Orgasms are a privilege, not a right. I may ask only when in a submissive state in which I am doing so for his pleasure. I am not to manipulate, insist or request one for selfish reasons.
4. Respond to texts within 20 minutes or notify him ahead of time that I will be out of reach.
5. Do not sleep naked unless given permission.
6. Text every night when going to bed.      
7. A weekly report of recent activities and relevant thoughts is to be emailed every Sunday night.
8. Legs, arms and mouth must be slightly open at all times in his presence.
9. Wear at least one gift from Sir every day. Choices include jewelry, panties, clothing, scarves etc. This information should be reported each night when I text that I am going to bed.
10. Always wear a skirt or dress in his presence unless given permission to do otherwise.
11. Sir has the final word. He is very fair and listens to my opinion but ultimately he decides the course of action.
12. Speak in a respectful manner and do not raise my voice.
13. Update the calendar with where I will be each night.
14. Be generally obedient. Expressing feelings is fine but there should be no excessive arguing or manipulating in order to get my way.
15. Panties must be worn at all times unless instructed otherwise.
16. Ask permission if anyone is going to use Sir's pussy.
17. I am responsible for the actions of any given submissive he decides.
18. All toys should be in working order and have working batteries installed at all times.

For the most part, I am pretty good at following these rules and it is of the upmost importance to me that I obey them. I feel horrible if I don’t. There are few feelings I dislike more than disappointing him. However, while I may not deliberately break these rules, it has occurred. Most of the time, this happens either by accident or by being careless and not paying attention.  

Without a doubt, the one that has caused me the most trouble is keeping my legs, arms and mouth slightly open at all times in his presence. This doesn’t come natural to me so I really struggle to remember and it probably has gotten me in more trouble than any other rule.

The other rule that is difficult to follow is number three. Not manipulating or insisting on an orgasm for my own selfish needs. While I have improved drastically here, I still occasionally get irritable and demanding. Most of the time when this happens is when it has been a long time since Sir has fucked me. Those demons that I work so hard to contain finally find a way out. It's not pretty and I'm often embarrassed by my reaction afterwards. Although a perpetually horny bitch like me can only go so long without it, I am getting better at controlling my urge to insist and demand sex. 

 I love my rules and take great pride in following them to prove my submission. I will always welcome any new rules and the opportunity they provide me to continue to strive to be the submissive he deserves.

Why is it so hard to keep my legs uncrossed?

Last evening, Sir and I met at a lovely restaurant overlooking Eastlake Union. I know from being at nearby restaurants that the view is fantastic although in the darkness I could only see a few scattered lights. I arrived early as I always do for Sir. This is just  one of the many bad habits he has broke me of.

Just the anticipation of seeing him made me wet with desire. When he walked in, his commanding presence took my breath away as it always does. I was now in full submission mode or so I thought.

A few weeks ago, he informed me that there were going to be some new rules. One of these was that I am not to cross my legs or arms and must always keep my mouth open on his presence. He didn't specify why and while it is not ever my place to question him I suspect the thought behind this rule is to symbolize how I am to always be open and available for his use and to show submission.

I am having a horrible time following this rule and to be honest, until now, I haven't put much effort into it and it shows. At dinner, I crossed my legs 3 times! Needless to say, Sir was not pleased and informed me that there would be absolutely no orgasms until he decided I was punished enough for my discretion. I started to disagree with him and justify my actions but just one look from him was enough to stop me in my tracks.

I can't tell you how horrible I felt for disappointing him! I hate it! He is always fair and gives very clear cut instructions. Why couldn't I follow this rule? Why couldn't I stop crossing my god damn legs?

I know better than to give an excuse. There is none. I fucked up. He gave me simple instructions and I didn't follow them but the social scientist in me wanted to know the reason why. I knew it couldn't be that  unconsciously I wanted to disobey him because it brings me nothing but misery, both physical and mental and it my always goal to avoid that kind of pain, especially the mental anguish. I know some subs who like to act bratty and get off on the negative attention that follows but that is just not me. I take my commitment so seriously that I would never deliberately disobey just to get attention.

So what was it? I thought and thought about it and this is the conclusion I came to. Aside from Sir's natural dominant abilities which are far superior to any I have ever seen or or heard about, my ability to submit is largely successful because of my normally stubborn nature. I have set my mind to submit and therefore my will naturally follow suit. This along with his programing almost guarantees success, at least eventually. 

As we said goodbye in the parking garage I was one big horny, chemical mess! I always am it when I am near him. As soon as he touched me and I smelled his intoxicating scent, I was a goner. My pussy was throbbing and I lost all train of thought. I wanted to ravage him, drink in all his dominant energy, be consumed. Unfortunately, my body must have not gotten the memo about how much trouble I was in. He had to be quite firm with me, making me keep my hands to my side. I felt like I was going to spontaneously combust and with that he was gone.

I really didn't want to sit home and try to squelch my raging desire but I really didn't want to go anywhere else either. So, I paced the floors and tried all the tricks in my well stocked arsenal to try to calm myself. I managed to distract myself briefly but the urges always returned quickly. My cravings were both physical and mental. The most dangerous kind, I was frustrated but I also knew I couldn't blame Sir or anyone else for my predicament. It was my fault and my fault alone. Eventually I fell asleep exhausted but firm in my resolve to become a better submissive..

When my alarm went off this morning, I was horny immediately but then the reasons why came to me so I got up resigned to my fate and even a little proud to be suffering for Sir. Work was crazy from the start and if wasn't long before I noticed my legs were crossed. God dammit! What was my problem?  I grabbed two small pieces of tape rolled them up so the sticky part was on both sides and placed a piece on the outside of each thigh.

These pieces of tape did their job of reminding me to stop crossing my legs 4 times in the morning alone but by the afternoon it only happened twice and tonight while I was out with a kinky friend it didn't happen at all! I know I am not out of the woods yet though. I plan on using this tape until I go at least 24 hours without breaking the rule.

I am determined to get this!